Several weeks ago, I longed for connection. Not with people but with God.
I couldn’t find Him. I couldn’t feel him, hear him, or sense him.
Searching for Connection
Well meaning people touted advice on how to find spiritual connection during these trying times:
- Read the Word.
- Make a gratitude journal.
- Show kindness to others.
- Listen to worship songs.
- Join a live-stream church session.
Yet, every suggestion failed me.
My Last Hope
So, I waited for spring. Not to garden but to sit.
Sitting on my patio is my haven, my safe place. I hoped to return to this sanctuary, this fail-safe where I’ve always been able to find God.
Finally, spring arrived, and I took my first patio nap. It was still cool out, but I was desperate. Wearing a thick grey sweater and wrapped in plush blankets, I snuggled into the patio couch. I hauled my laptop outside and opened Spotify to play my favourite worship music playlist.
Yes! Nature and worship, at once? This is the ticket! Today, I will connect.
But it wasn’t, and I didn’t.
The worship annoyed me, grated on my nerves – the ones that craved rest and connection, not noise. I turned off the music, feeling guilty.
Where are you, God? my heart cried. And why don’t I want to worship you?
Connection in the Quiet
I lay back and closed my eyes. I breathed in and out. And there, in the quiet, I found the spiritual connection I was seeking:
- I felt his kindness in the warmth of the sun.
- I felt his joy in the sounds of my children playing.
- Even in the shade of clouds passing overhead, I felt his protection and grace.
The birds chirped their songs, and my heart leapt.
The trees clap their branches, and my heart joined.
The bunny scurried and nibbled his praise, and my heart giggled.
These, this, they are my worship. God is everywhere, and He’s enough.
God brought the worship team to my backyard. His worship team, His way. I’m so thankful he knows me so well, knows what I need, knows how I connect with him.
Do You Feel a Lack of Spiritual Connection?
Remember, God knows you perfectly. He will meet you in a way that is right for you. Don’t lose heart: He’s everywhere.
Thank you for meeting me in the garden. I love you.
Please lift up my friend, my sister, who is reading this today. Encourage her. Restore her faith, her hope, her feeling of connection with you.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.